Minor Account

The days past: drinks with Evan, hit on by 35 year old women. Hot but stupid - lots of anticipation for nothing. Realizing that talking to women or really anybody is always the same in different ways. Got my hat back - I can feel the energy in it. When i put it on and walk around.
Kelly came up to me at a bench today when I was on my computer and I just felt really slow and patient, which was good, and made things funny because of the spacial orientation - me sitting, her standing, etc.
The main thing lately has been the idea of struggle - at least the main intellectual thing. Liberation is defined by oppression. This is the key point in nihilistic thought. And the statement that tells us that struggle will never end. Because perspectives are always changing, always different, and because we can never get a true grasp on the present state of things (the sexual)....We are in no position to make universal claims or to take action on issues which aren't local to us, or specific to our the (expert) knowledge we possess. And even here things are shaky. We must be careful. It's more about open up spaces for dialogue to occur; for people to make statements - those who do not currently have that space.

In other news, school is ending, I'm learning to ask questions, I bought a voice recorder and I will soon by a Super 8.
My friends are bothering me in some ways, but they are great.
Ben is distant, we have short conversations usually. To the point, but perhaps too much. It is at once necessary and totally unimportant to speak. Because we both know some things and don't know others and it doesn't seem to matter much. Perhaps nothing needs to be said.
Taymoor told me about black holes and physics and it completely applies to this nihilistic thought - think more about this...
Evan and I will go to San Diego tomorrow. For Sun God. I have never been.
This is some truth.

Must go to the East.
(soon)